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22112005 pol mi je rekao da si dropnula mejl. ja sam bolje (valjda). kako si ti?
kakvi su ti nalazi i sta su diagnostikovali?

ja sam juce gledala moj aparat za merenje glikemije, i u 30 dana sam se
bocnula u prstice preko 270 puta (preko, jer cesto moram par puta da se
bocnem, neki put nece krv da izadje). to je u proseku 9 bockanja u prstic
dnevno. takodje dajem 6-8 inekcija dnevno. diabetes je odlicno
regulisan, ali sam tako umorna neki put od svega ovoga. drugi
dijabeticari ne vode tako striktnu kontrolu i na forumima cujem i citam o
komplikacijama i teskocama koje neki dozivljavaju. znam da je bolje da se
radi ovako kako ja radim, ali stvarno, shvatila sam, nema druge bolesti
koja zahteva vise kontrola i 'metala u meso' toliko puta dnevno, zauvek.
i to samo da se komplikacije (ako se) ne razvijaju, one vec postoje. vid
mi je na levom oku spasen, ali vidim mutnije nego pre. apparently, oko
raste tokom zivota i oziljci od lasera se sire - niko mi to nije rekao.
visecu oftamologa 1. decembra. sutra vidjam dijabetologa i sledeceg
utorka psihijatra - ona je vec napisala pismo nekom specijalisti i ici cu
sa nalazima krvi jer takodje sve moje dosadasnje dijagnoze moraju da se
uzmu u obzir.

secer regulisan (sa 15ak uboda dnevno i par manjkova i viskova stalno oko
mene koje moram da regulisem), sta da kazem? ja, koja sam bila najveci
optimista na svetu sad samo gledam na zivot i hocu da pljunem na sve -
chemu sve to, kakvo veliko delo, kalkvo jebeni bogovi, kakvo jebeno telo?
gledam Madonu, 47 godina, radi spage i stavove na glavi, moze majka da mi
bude i toliko je zdrava - ja cak ne mogu jedan dan da provedem sa polom a
da ne budem iritantna, 'down', ma ne ja uopste. cemu sve to? da se udam?
pa da postane udovac, sate, dane da broji koliko sam ziva? manjak,
vishak, manjak, vishak... ni drugs don't work anymore, dali mi verujesh
(ovo je najstrasnije od svega, znas li to?)?
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From: Maxine McKeown
Subject: aadhd
To: Mima Mijic
Mima Mijic

Date: Wednesday 17 May, 2006 11:00 PM Message history

Hi Mima,
I have MS and I know how difficult it is to concentrate on things, it is more difficult when things are speeding round your head, I work with students with ADHD, so I can understand where you are coming from, is this why you chose a course with no exam? It is why I chose it!!!
good luck Mima, I havent seen u online much of late
Maxine






Its so nice of you to contact me, Maxine. My fiance's (7yrs together, he is from Glasgow) father had MS. When we met I didn't tell him I have diabetes, have it since 1984. Haven't taken care about food during 90s in Jugoslavija, we had embargo so glycemy meters weren't available. Moved with him to Paris during bombardement in 99, started taking control, got glyc-meter, started taking 3 injections a day (instead of 2). In oct. '99 went to oftalmologist, she said if I dont have a number of laser interventions in eyes, I would get blind in 6 months. Saved left eye, on right don't see the centre, cannot read with right one, just see periphery. Then I developed periferal neuropathy, gastroparesis of stomack (its better now with smaller vegetarian meals). Last year noticed heart speeding in effort (stairways, psychological efforts, whilst when clubbing on drugs I am ok, noticed there are people's energy apart from food energy, and that influence nerves, feelings...), its also from Vagus nerve, autonomous system neu
ropathy, a bit better this year because lost weight and started clubbing again. But pain in legs is terrible, so I could sleep for 15 hours a day, so I would be the rest of the day in high spirits as I like to present myself.
My sugar control is excelent, my hb1ac is 5.7%, stubbing my fingers 5-9 times a day and giving 6-10 injections to immitate natural organism. What we will do to repair our nerves, Maxine? I know its different thing, yours is in myelin sheets, my in destroyed nerves by high blood sugar, but am beliving in finding a cure for our diagnosis. Now I got diagnosed with adhd, knew it from ever but just found out there is a name for my way of behaving and looking on stuff. Feel sometimes terrible because Paul works (computer guy, internet...) sometimes two jobs a day and it is me who is hyperactive and now dont have energy nor organisational skills to do something till the end, and am sleeping for ages and feel terrible that other people with diabetes do not care so styrictly about themselves like I do, what they want, to take care (like me) just that complications do not progress??? What a maddness.
By the way, how are you coping with your diagnosis? Are you an optimista (I think we should after all all be optimists, even though there are a depressive spells in life sometimes).

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